There are often times when I feel I should be thinking about my intake of food products. And there are times when I KNOW I should be doing something about my diet. The problem is, I struggle to get it right. Any of the time. I will eat food, at least three times a day. Not because I want to but because I have to with regards to my diabetes medications. I know I've been diagnosed for 7 and 1/2 years now. But I still get it wrong. At a ridiculous level.
The challenge is, basically, a weak willpower level and a brain hardwired to fall for that which is not good for me. Pathetic really isn't it? Everyday is a part of my learning curve. Yes, at 48 years of age, I am still learning. and I am prepared to keep learning as well. Even if it means I get crazily mad with myself and get emotionally over-strung. And it keeps happening. I am full of so many good intentions. But loaded down with a bucket-full of indecision and bad choices.
I have started taking a keener interest in what options, information-wise, are out there. I have known since day one that there is no quick fix for me. Or for anyone with this disease. In any of it's variations. As I sit out, in the garden soaking up the July sunshine, and type this I realise that, since my last post in August 2015 not a lot has changed for me. And that is probably because I haven't let it, in all honesty. I am always loking for excuses not to succeed. The positive is a very challenging reality to find and keep hold of, let alone benefit from. Not that most people who know me would realise this, as I still keep up with the old "tears of a clown" persona. It's only when I'm alone that the mask will slip. Otherwise, yay, I'm Mr Entertainer. I do have some positive moments such as listening to music, or losing myself in a very good book. Right now I am listening to Hannah Woolmer and Daniel Roberts' album "L'esprit Boheme". Just what is needed I think.
I see I have meandered off my opening track (again!), but that's how my mind will often wander.
Be safe people and love your life, no matter the problems you may have. It's the only one we get.
Love and peace!
